Hi,

I am the founder of Omnimaga (2001) and CodeWalrus (2014) and author of various past calculator programs (mostly RPGs). I stepped down from my Omnimaga admin position in 2011 and remained active as news editor until around a few months ago. In the meantime, I was also active on Cemetech on and off, as well as CodeWalrus afterward.

Unfortunately, after recommendations from friends due to issues mentionned in this post, I am now announcing my goodbye from SAX (#Cemetech IRC channel) and the entire Omnimaga website. It is possible that this departure might extend to Cemetech forums and other sites, if the issues below becomes a problem there too.


My issues to communicate properly have plagued my experience and the experience of others in the community when I was around, with misunderstandings and disputes. While a few were intentionally caused by some community members, I have troubles with working out people's intention that I never got able to overcome, thanks in part to several bad experiences in the past (a lot in real life). Unfortunately, those issues are not related to text being a poor communication medium nor language barrier, because I have the same problem when communicating in my native language via voice mediums, so it caused me problems in real life too in the past.

This, along with many other things I noticed about myself over the years, led to the conclusion that I have asperger syndrome. It is not officially diagnosticed but many people that I know have it and I have every single symptom to a certain degree). I also always had serious problems adapting to changes (an example being switching from BASIC to Axe/ASM/C) and why, 8 years after moving to my own appartment, I am barely able to adapt to the extra life duties that come with it.


It was wrong from me and the others people to continuously tell admins of other sites to run things the way we want, because they are not our sites. Normally we either deal with it, go elsewhere or start our own place. Unfortunately, I was unable to adapt to Cemetech nor the change in direction that Omnimaga took in recent years, and since it was the case of other people as well, the last option was chosen. It was not intended as an attack towards other sites, but rather to make the community more diverse (all 3 sites had different mentalities, good sides and negative sides). But no matter what, I am sorry to have bothered Omni, Cemetech and other site admins non-stop in the past to have things ran differently.


My problems do not limit themselves to my communication and changes issues, however, unless the rest is caused by those two issues. I started becoming into a somewhat depressive mood starting in early October or so, which worsened ever since. In addition to that, my sensitivity is another thing I have never been able to overcome, and seeing a psy in 2010 didn't help, as he pretty much told me the exact same things that close friends at the time told me. Also, when a bad incident affects me, sometimes, I will keep bad memories of it forever, even if later I become in good terms with the people involved. If I see them again later, those bad memories come back and I start feeling down. So the solution was to avoid being around those people (which can be a problem in real life but so far it hasn't happened with immediate acquintances there).


I am not sure how we will stay in touch after this post. I know that some people here and other sites frequent private IRC channels, Facebook, Skype and Telegram, but not everyone does. PM or e-mail can work, but it depends of how often I check those. CodeWalrus has run out of staff and it might take a miracle to allow it to continue in its current form. In the event where it would be taken over by the remaining members, that might eventually be an alternate option to contact me. That said, I alienated many people in the past, if not recently, with my behavior, and you did not deserve any backlash from my part (ok, some people did, but not everyone have bad intentions). This made it next to impossible for me to keep a friendship intact (the only friendships I think I managed to keep 100% intact are with tr1p1ea and juju). So my departure might be for the best. Sorry for those I have hurt and maybe, one day, I can come back. I hope I can continue working on First Fantasy: Mana Force and other projects regardless of the outcome of this, but motivation might be hard to come by.


On a more positive (or negative, depending of how you see it) note, I also withdrew from the music industry, so starting March 15th, all my music on Bandcamp will become free.


-Kevin Ouellet, alias DJ Omnimaga

I keep saying this could go better. While you don't feel like friendship with certain people here (including me apparently) are not 100% intact, the other way around isn't necessarily true.

I'll only talk for myself ; I know that we've had some arguments in the past, and those were not only because of your "problems" (is that the right word ?) ; I've been a d*ck sometimes too, who isn't once in a lifetime ?

My point is, don't be so harsh on yourself. Some things are your fault, but not all of them - and even like that, for some instances you yourself say you can't help it.

Anyway, if you really made up your mind, good luck with the rest ; you will be missed.

Well, for me this comes as a big surprise on the one hand and at the same time as a huge disappointment. I do not think you are the best judge on your own cause, period. Let others judge your behaviour. Soon you'll find out you're not that weird a person. I for one do appreciate very much (perhaps not always) your grasp of the community members behaviour. Most of the times you get it just right. That's a special (gift) ability you are born with (genetics, oh yeah) not something you get through schooling. Come on, after all it was you who started this nice site AND it has been a success (admit it!). Hope to see you around (maybe under another alias) sometime soon. My sincere appreciation for your dedication and work. I wish your the best of luck in your future projects (maybe 'Find a girl, Settle down...' - Cat Stevens, 1970). 
Cheers,

See you and good bye DJ.

We'll miss you