sorry to hear that CDI I saw this on IRC earlier with other stuff, it's pretty sad that lot of nice ppl have to go through lot of sh*t, especially when they are the people who deserve the best of life. i have no friends actually, but I try to continue in life with what i have, what i know and try to get the best of life, even if sometimes it can be hard. Some stuff that happened to me has some impact of how I act today now, I have to deal with this a lot and sometimes I have to do some choices, but I try to get the best of life anyway. I hope things go well for you Please reconsider doing anything bad, If I learned that you hurted yourself or killed yourself or dissapeared somewhere I would feel really really really sad, even if we never meet in real life.  

Hrm, it seems that us crazy anti-social people can't handle this sort of stuff very well. You are now the third or fourth person I know who has experienced this sort of thing and responded poorly. Don't worry tho- I think you have the lightest case of this so far. DA has been sad for almost a year now about this sort of thing and my friend frankie had it for a month which seems short except it was really bad with him- all he did was sleep and stare at the walls and stuff. Didn't eat much and didn't even play the mmorpgs he obsessivly plays normally. (he can't stand not being in the top 100 people playing in the world )

Anywho, all I can really say is there are other fish in the sea. It probably doesn't seem so right now, but eventually you should be able to get over it. It's not like you yourself are low/a bad person as the irc quote above seems to suggest. I don't know why your other friend is avoiding you, but it might be just because they don't want to make you angry or sad by bringing up the girl or whatever and don't really know how to talk to you about it. Act normally (meaning not depressive) and start hanging out with your friends like normal again. Maybe have a LAN party, become intoxicated with bawls and mountain dew, ddr till you can't stand, and play some fps all night long until your brain is completely dead to take your mind off things. (god, I love LAN parties ) Also, a suggestion for the future- it might not be so great to start off with saying you have a crush on the person. Even tho I'd prefer that the world worked that way, most people aren't prepared for such forwardness. (actually, how you had the guts to do that is beyond me You definitely get credit for that) How bout first going out with them for a bit and getting to know them better? rofl, me giving advice on love stuff. On second thought, considering I majorly suck in all social matters don't take any of my advice. Just quit being depressed and be happy if only for the reason that happiness is much cooler. Also, there's the timendus quote: "If life's being a b*tch, just kick it in the nuts, and laugh in it's face!" ~Timendus

^^ueber^^  :bow::bow::bow:

Hey CDI, I dont know if this will make you feel better, but you certainly aren't alone. There are a lot of people (especially in this community) with relationship problems ... the real problem is there is no quick fix for this kind of feeling.

The only thing that does help is time, and talking about it with friends. Most of us are always available for a chat, or even just to be an ear and listen. Im always on IRC if you feel the need.

I hope that we hear a reply from you sometime soon fred, as I will get a little more worried as each day goes by. I know it has been <12 hours but today if you get a chance just drop a line on IRC or here (maybe both?). Anyways as everyone has said before I think time is the only anwser (as it will heal the wounds). If you talk to DA he had a similar situaction to yours and he was miserable, but now he is making progress towards a better additude towards his life (i'm not putting words in his mouth, at least I hope i'm not). He is talking with the person who caused all this commontion with him, and though it may be rough some days for him he gets through it (they talk in class and may cuss at each other or scream/cry but we all need to let it out). I hope to see you stay around here, as I know me and kevin aren't the only ones who would miss you and care about you!

P.S. If you don't find any of this helpful then look at my speling misteaks.....Yeah I spelled those two words wrong on purpose but oh well I don't have to try too hard to mispell .

I have talked to DA (last night) and among other things here's more information...

This isn't a short 'bout of depresson, the past 5 years I have put people before me and getting more and more depressed as each day goes on and finally I snapped...

Last night I decided to tell people how bad I am, most didn't know, but do now that yes, I have tried suicide before, and the only thing holding me back was her...

Again last night around 2:00AM I tried again... but felt that at LEAST I needed a day for final goodbyes, and lasting impressons, and all I need now is some sense... I hate to say but I'm more than half-sure I'll acually go through with it, and not have any doubts...

Around 2:30 when this all hit me I did something very important that got me up in the morning, took me to school, and has gottem me here... I wrote "Don't think ANYTHING" in very large letters on a sign to post in my room, now following that sign is easier said than done, I haven't yet acheved thoughtlessness but I will get there...

If I haven't made it clear, I don't WANT to feel this way, but it seems like at times the thought of another day alive isn't enough to keep me going any longer, and if there were no more days then maybe, just maybe, it'll all be okay in the end...

How seriously are you thinking of comitting suicide now? I know that it hurts a lot so I think it's indeed time to put other's problems on hold and ask for help, so posting here is a good thing. If you keep posting, we will listen at least, maybe we can offer some more help.

Do you have anybody you can go to to talk? Maybe family or another friend? Maybe a local preacher, if you're religious? Someone who'll just listen and be there for you? Maybe you can talk on a hotline for problems like this? There are some very nice people out there willing to help you. If you can't or just want to post here, that's fine too.

I'd like to offer this link with some video/audio's that always get me out of depressions, maybe you can find some comfort in them:
http://www.bswa.org/modules/mydownloads/viewcat.php?cid=15

If it doesn't help or you don't want to watch them, then that's ok too, we'll still be here if you want to talk.

You must keep trying.  I don't know you well as some people here, but I can tell you that life is infinitely better than this last resort.  Turn to God, and please don't give up.  Get a bible.  Don't think, just read.