Author Topic: this is for xlibman and kalan_vod (Read 16170 times)

CDI · « **Reply #60 on:** February 04, 2006, 05:54:00 am »

well, I just got news that one of my good friends now refuses to be my friend, and says he'll never be my friend ever again because I am depressed and "knowing depressed people can get you hurt when they kill themselves, and I refuse to hurt myself through you"

DJ Omnimaga · « **Reply #61 on:** February 04, 2006, 06:08:00 am »

that means it wasnt a friend, rigth? Well I got lot of friends who did that to me, so basically this means they werent really my friends :|

spengo · « **Reply #62 on:** February 04, 2006, 07:02:00 am »

I agree. I sure didn't abandon any of my friends who got extrememly depressive. (2 so far) Besides that's also a rather retarded thing to do as it will probably only make you MORE depressed right? It's counter-productive from every point of view. You're getting better now tho, right?

CDI · « **Reply #63 on:** February 04, 2006, 07:05:00 am »

well... not so much, but I did promise darth android that I would not be the cause of my own death, so we can stop worrying about that (I keep my promises) but I am not better per-say

tifreak · « **Reply #64 on:** February 04, 2006, 08:06:00 am »

Here is another idea: You said you would write more tutorials, right? Maybe if you wrote up a bunch of them, it would get your mind off of what you are feeling for a while...

But I still say get a puppy.

CDI · « **Reply #65 on:** February 04, 2006, 08:11:00 am »

the problem is that my mind can't easily get wrapped around things... I often find myself programming, listening to music, and thinking of something completely diffrent, I am used to multitasking and can't ever seem to devote 100% or even 50% of my mind to one single thing

Ranman · « **Reply #66 on:** February 04, 2006, 08:24:00 am »

I hate multitasking... It requires too much thought process. I would rather just keep it simple.

kalan_vod · « **Reply #67 on:** February 04, 2006, 08:39:00 am »

Well it is great to hear you are going to not kill yourself! We really care about you and would had hated to see that happen. I am sorry to hear about that so called friend of yours who doesn't want to be friends anymore. If it helps you have gained more friends than you have lost! All of us in this thread, if we didn't want to be friends or didn't care about you we would've flamed or not posted here. Hey in fact I don't think I would've gave you my # to call and talk to me if I didn't care about you and wanted to help. I hope to see the animation thingy as it sounds very intesesting!

Master Jc · « **Reply #68 on:** February 04, 2006, 12:35:00 pm »

I had no doubt in my mind that you would come through. As for your former friend, I'd have to say that he's an idiot and extremely shallow. I know he was probably good pals with you at one time, but someone like that... ugh...

Radical Pi · « **Reply #69 on:** February 04, 2006, 02:27:00 pm »

I'm glad to hear you are doing better (compared to when this topic was started of course!

).

kalan_vod · « **Reply #70 on:** February 04, 2006, 03:18:00 pm »

It seems things are clearing up for several people, fred, DA and well that's about it. I think you guys are making some improvments in your life and just need to keep at them.

CDI · « **Reply #71 on:** February 06, 2006, 09:38:00 am »

hehe, doing better... that's funny... I'm NOT doing better, but I have realized some things...

a ) School depresses me, except for 2 people there
b ) The girl I had a "crush" (if you will) on refused to know me because I was suicidal (I guess) which makes that her fault, If I was suicidal, then I was depressed, and refusing to know depressed people is bad
c ) Promises are VERY hard to keep... but they are possible... just very hard
d ) It's very diffucult to tell someone "You kinda saved my life on friday" without sounding stupid

dysfunction · « **Reply #72 on:** February 06, 2006, 09:48:00 am »

It can be difficult to be friends with a very depressed person... there are times I've wanted to tell Bram (the_unknown_one) just to shut up and deal with his own problems But since I am his friend, I didn't. If this girl was truly your friend, she would have helped you in any way possible.

CDI · « **Reply #73 on:** February 06, 2006, 09:58:00 am »

yes, I see that now, but meh... at least I don't have *urk* feelings for *urk* her anymore?

CDI · « **Reply #74 on:** February 14, 2006, 10:12:00 am »

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

ColdPlay - Fix You

What if there was no line?
Nothing wrong, nothing right.
What if there was no time?
And no reason or rhyme.
What if you should decide, that you don't want me there by your side.
That you don't want me there in your life.

What if I got it wrong, and no poem or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide that you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life.

Oooh, that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side
Oooh, that's right
How can you know it if you don't even try
Oooh, that's right

Every step that you take could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
But that's the risk that you take
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there in your life
That you don't want me there by your side.

Oooh, that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side
Oooh, that's right
How can you know it when you don't even try
Oooh, that's right

Ohhhhh

Oooh, that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side
Oooh, that's right
You know that darkness always turns into light
Oooh, that's right

ColdPlay - What If

Happy Valentine's Day, I hope yours was good...

Author Topic: this is for xlibman and kalan_vod (Read 16170 times)

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