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xlibman, don't go!
« on: January 02, 2007, 08:34:00 am »
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[11:59] [12:48:02] [13:43:10] i may not wake up tomorrow
[11:59] [12:48:03] [13:43:52] i cant live like this, i cant even seems to get along with my mother anymore
[11:59] [12:48:03] [13:44:05] everything i say, i get accused of doing stuff i never did
[11:59] [12:48:03] [13:44:21] and i always screw up things
[11:59] [12:48:03] [13:46:17] so if i am not here tomorrow, it will be cuz i'll prbly have taken every pills/medics i can find which i got to recover from my cough and i may die in my sleep or something
[11:59] [12:48:03] [13:46:47] so if i see you this evening (afternoon for you), it will be prbly the last time
[11:59] [12:48:03] [13:46:48] i am sry
[11:59] [12:48:04] [13:46:56] but i really cant take it anymore
[11:59] [12:48:05] [13:47:10] so farewell if i dont see you anymore
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« Reply #1 on: January 02, 2007, 08:37:00 am »
When was this? And wow that's pretty bad  :(sad.gif

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« Reply #2 on: January 02, 2007, 09:05:00 am »
earlier today.
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« Reply #3 on: January 02, 2007, 10:27:00 am »
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« Reply #4 on: January 02, 2007, 10:34:00 am »
Please don't go, xlibman.  Just...please don't go.  It's not really going to help.  It's going to hurt Omnimaga, us, and anybody else who cares about you.  

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« Reply #5 on: January 02, 2007, 10:34:00 am »
please don't kill yourself, xlibman.
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« Reply #6 on: January 02, 2007, 10:42:00 am »
...Just look back at our suggestions from earlier...it's not worth it...

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« Reply #7 on: January 02, 2007, 03:18:00 pm »
sigh...kevin, work like crazy for a bit and get a small loan and get the hell out of that house.  I have no idea how much an apartment costs in canada but the minimum wage there is $7.75 and if you can split the cost two ways with someone, I am sure you could afford an appartment.  Just run the numbers and budget yourself.
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« Reply #8 on: January 03, 2007, 06:14:00 am »
xlibman, it isn't worth it. Life is more precious than almost anything (well, maybe not your calc, but thats up to you). You've been great in the past years, try to focus on being greater in the future.

Don't go. Not just Omnimaga, but the whole calc community will miss you. Suicide is also kinda contagious, if you didn't know that...

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« Reply #9 on: January 03, 2007, 12:11:00 pm »
xlibman, if you look back on your great accomplishments, creating omnimaga, the illusiat series (one of my favorite calc rpg's)... you can see what an awesome person you have been. Look ahead to the future. think of all the awesome things you will acomplish. If you end your life, you are taking your future. you are taking away all things you will accomplish. Don't dwell on present problems it will only make things worse. Think about accomplishing something and do it. as long as you look to the future things  will get better.

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« Reply #10 on: January 03, 2007, 03:51:00 pm »
QuoteBegin-necro+2 Jan, 2007, 21:18-->
QUOTE (necro @ 2 Jan, 2007, 21:18)
sigh...kevin, work like crazy for a bit and get a small loan and get the hell out of that house.  I have no idea how much an apartment costs in canada but the minimum wage there is $7.75 and if you can split the cost two ways with someone, I am sure you could afford an appartment.  Just run the numbers and budget yourself.  

 I second that. You're a grown man dude, it's time to live your life for yourself not for the ones who harm you. Leave everything bad behind and never look back!

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« Reply #11 on: January 03, 2007, 04:02:00 pm »
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« Reply #12 on: January 03, 2007, 05:08:00 pm »
Please xlibman, I more than anyone probably knows what all you've made it though. You can make it though this. Worse has happened before, and you've gotten through it, alive and kicking.

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« Reply #13 on: January 04, 2007, 01:53:00 am »
atm my life is not what I would qualify as stable. I may or may not be much online in the next few days, because i need to take some time off, plus i need to get back lost sleep hours. Tuesday i felt pretty weak, and almost lost counsciousness at work a few times so much I was nervous. Back at home It took me 3 hours to fall asleep (I went to bed near 11 PM), and I woke up next morning at 10:30 AM, I never woke up that late before, usually at 8 I am up and in worst cases 9. To make things worse even if i woke up late I was feeling worse than the day before, i could barely move when I woke up. My issue between me and my mother was solved that day but there is still some stuff me and she worried about and upset about (family problems mostly), it may even come to the point where we will not even celebrate christmas/new year at all anymore, because it will be a day like each others for us, as we will have stopped any relations with any family members. While I may still feel good from time to time, things for me are not stable enough to come online on a regular basis anymore, so expect me to vanish for a few days from time to time. I am sorry for making everyone worried all the time, I didn't meant to, it's just that things aren't going well at all atm and sometimes i would just end all of it.

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« Reply #14 on: January 04, 2007, 02:08:00 am »
Sigh....

Good luck, xlibman.  Just don't give up...